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"Searching for One Thing and Finding Another"
Neither Saul nor the field hand in Jesus’ parable were looking for what they found. [See Scripture Readings.] Saul was searching for lost animals; the field hand was doing his job. Saul found a kingdom; the field hand a treasure. They were not looking for it. Saul was searching for one thing. Single-minded, persistent, dedicated. What happened was outside the bounds of everyday experience. Broke expectations and interrupted the ordinary. In the seeking and searching something else was found. It was not earned or labored for. It was something found that was a gift and had a profound impact on Saul and the field hand. Set life in a new context, gave life a new vision, generated new meaning, and passion and energy.
At first glance the category of luck or accident seems to play a major part: the animals are lost by misfortune, the travelers fortuitously stop within sight of city of an honored seer, and the finding of an appropriate gift. Behind all the apparently accidental occurrences, we are led to suspect that a higher purpose is working itself out. There is a momentous reality that underlies seemingly trivial circumstance. Something else is being worked out here other than Saul's agenda. He undergoes a process of discovery that leads him to an awareness of God's agenda, to the hands of providence. God speaks to Samuel and lays out the divine resolve. Saul is to be anointed for a task. The whole process occurs because of the goodness of God. It takes Saul a while to see, to comprehend. He comes to Samuel with his mind set on animals; God will set Saul's mind on something else that is new and fulfills a role in God's grand design for the creation. We know God's way will be implemented powerfully and with determination. This is larger than lost animals, Saul or Samuel. God works in the historical process. As a result Saul finds himself in a new reality; he is filled with energy and freedom beyond himself. The power of God works newness in the face of established structure, order, and assumptions. There is a purpose beyond Saul's own self. It is a total revisioning of the world in a way that shatters old perceptions, invites new commitments, and requires new actions. Saul has become available for God's power and purpose in remarkable ways. He is moved by God out beyond his own hopes, goals, agendas toward a larger vision. It is not business as usual, or a return to what is normal. It is a being turned towards God's newness with inexplicable freedom and power. Pope John XXIII was chosen through a carefully managed bureaucratic process (interim) but was of another heart and mind. He was available to the spirit and was led in astonishing directions (objectionable to some). For John the world was not closed and settled, but opened up by God. Saul’s story encourages us to sit a little loose to our own agendas in a way that is freeing. Presbyterians are noted for persistence. But because of that persistence we face a peculiar danger: searching for one thing, we may miss finding that something else! That is the problem with focusing on something important to us. What is very clear in Saul's story is that God is in that other finding. We are looking at providence: that hidden, patient, sovereign working of God's overriding purpose behind the will and choice of human beings. We may think it is our good fortune and our shrewd human strategies. Thinking that we are in the right place at right time implies we are in charge, we have the power. But around the process hovers another purpose, another presence. God's working surfaces at many places: searching for one thing, we find another. This hidden caring of God is not always easy to see. Notice in Saul's story the hidden purpose that is relentless yet beyond anyone's management or manipulation. Providence is about decisive divine presence. A similar theme occurs in J.R.R. Tolkien's great trilogy The Lord of the Rings. In volume one, The Fellowship of the Ring, the following conversation takes place between Frodo who possessed the corrupting ring and Gandalf the wizard, they are discussing how to destroy the ring. Frodo speaks: "…..To have it destroyed. I am not made for perilous
quests. I wish I had never seen the ring! Why did it come to me? Why was I
chosen?" A few pages earlier Frodo had bemoaned the fact that the times were bad. "So do I," said Gandalf, "and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us." 2 Frodo discovers that he is part of a larger vision. His gifts and talents are not his; they are God’s to be used for a larger, fuller purpose. Frodo was looking for one thing, and found for another. That is true for us. God is at work to give us a better future than we can create or initiate for ourselves. There is more at work in us than can be explained in any conventional way. That more is God's hidden caring providence. This is more than simply being illuminated, this is about being transformed. The best things, experiences, people befall us. The objects we love have much to do with who we are, yet our loves are not self-made. While we were searching for one thing, they crossed our path. We rarely chose them, they were compelling. That is true of the best things in life. We are all part of a story we do not create. Perhaps we ought to stop and wait at times and look around us and see when we are searching for one thing we can find another. Could Advent and Christmas be such a time? They could perhaps. We are all vulnerable, we are all limited by our physical conditions, our emotional needs, and our proneness to sin. No person loves or does any good without the help of God. Whatever acts of kindness or virtue we perform, whatever strengths or happiness we have, whatever our ability to work well and love well, God gives. We have freedom to make plans and act them out, to live our own life. God has freedom too, to be God: to place before us as we search that other, that something else; to call us back to God's will only by means of which can we find human fulfillment. In our sitting down and our rising up, our comings and goings, God offers that something else. God is here, reliable, working, calling, enticing. There are lots of futilitarians in the world. Saul’s story, our story says to them: each day brings opportunities that a faithful boldness may grasp if in searching for one thing, it finds another. God doesn't ask us to run the universe. God will do that. God asks us to serve God. We always behave as if we were called upon to make the truth triumph, whereas we are called upon only to struggle for it. God who can make the truth triumph has a special place for our own acts of loyal service, if we can see that something else. That seeing something else will require of us risk, learning, leaps of faith. Saul could have said "I am only searching for lost animals!" If the best things befall us, can we place ourselves in a setting, a situation where that can happen? More often than not it is another human being who aids us in the seeing. We are called to live large, not small; our lives are not confined to searching for one thing. God is always opening new doors, providing new vistas. Our task is to trust God’s providence even when it cannot be directly seen. It is like an artist who takes a white canvas and slowly but surely fills it with color and meaning, and slowly, and subtly the image gradually appears, the picture sharpens, until one marvels that it is filled with such life and meaning. Evaluating existence solely on the basis of its present state is unproductive, even unrealistic. It will change and unless we can understand its direction and possibilities, it will change without the guidance of vision. God is not satisfied with that. Life is more than searching for lost animals. God sends us something else helping us to see existence against the backdrop of possibilities God gives, and we catch a glimpse of the loving power behind the world. God's presence may be in the slight nudging of the process, the murmured word in a human ear that can direct a life to the service of humanity. God inspires, but doe not force. God in some gentle, unobtrusive way, whispers God's desire to human beings. Then we read the world as full of the purposes of God. We are all searching, can we see that something else? It may be the very thing that crowns life. As we approach the holidays, perhaps it is a good time to discover what Saul discovered. What are you searching for...? Searching for one thing, can you see that other….
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